I don’t write for you.

I write for me.

And yet as I type, I hesitate. I wonder if I’m saying too much. Or perhaps too little.

I type it out. Backspace furiously. Type again.

Sometimes I simply discard the draft.

No one needs to read this, I think. There is plenty of content and my addition isn’t necessary.

And then there are moments I don’t care if it’s necessary. I don’t care if you’ve seen this same post a thousand times.

Because I don’t write for you.

I write for me.

I write to feel.

I write to process.

I write to share, to connect with maybe a single person out there who needed a flower picture or reminder to get outdoors or who also was in a dark headspace.

And sometimes, the post goes nowhere.

There is no cosmic connection to another soul.

Sometimes it’s just a picture I liked with some words I put together that people “like” out of habit or politeness.

That’s just realistic though, isn’t it?

There are days you have these blessed moments with your loved ones, where you share belly laughs or heartbreaking conversations.

And there are days where you and your partner or friends are disconnected from the actual space in front of you because there is so much noise surrounding you.

Life doesn’t consist of just high points and low points. There is a lot of middle. A lot of ordinary. And even more routine. Sometimes it can feel a smidgen dull.

So if you don’t let yourself get swayed a little by the extraordinary, you might not end up getting out of bed in the middle of the night to write a ridiculous post online… like me.

But this is not for you. It’s for me.

If you like it though… I won’t fight it.

And if you’re still here after this nonsense, I have some action items (yes, I say this in regular speak because I’m always a little bit on work-brain):

Stay open to new adventures, stay curious about how you can break routines. Get up in the middle of the night and write. Go climb a tree. Show your partner/spouse/friend how you love them in a different way than you normally do.

Be brave, friend.

And thanks for reading 😉